Slow down. Breathe.
No one is that important; quit trying to sell yourself as something you’re not.
It seems I was waiting for this article to be written:
The psychological importance of wasting time (The Atlantic / Quartz)
““Wasting time is about recharging your battery and de-cluttering,” he says. Taking time to be totally, gloriously, proudly unproductive will ultimately make you better at your job, says Guttridge. But it’s also fulfilling in and of itself.”
And also, this article from Alex Soojung-Kim Pang, “Darwin was a slacker and you should be too,” in Nautilus:
And this, “Why time management is ruining our lives,” from the Guardian: